Our beautiful dog Neo, has gone blind................
Over the past few days he has not been himself, no running laps of the backyards, going to visit Mick next door or scratching at the door for his dinner.
Today I looked into his eye and it was all cloudy, he could not see me, could only feel my touch. My heart skipped a beat, tears tried to break the surface as I yelled to Will that I think Neo can't see.
I watched as he smelt his way around, stumbled onto his bed, bumped into the outside table - and navigated to his favourite sunning spot on the steps.
Sitting here, I feel sad for him, no longer will he see our faces, watch over and protect our kids from strangers, gallop around the back yard like he is a race horse - have the zest for life that he has always had.
Tears are now falling, I can't control how I am feeling, I don't know what to feel, he is slipping away from us.
How long will it be before we decide that his quality of life is no longer?
We talked about it today, when do you make that decision? We don't want to have to make it, we hope that one day he passes on while dreaming in his sleep.
For those of you that don't know his story, this is the life of our Neo.
We chose him because he was the runt of the litter, he was full of life, he warmed to us. He became a part of our family, when we married nine years ago.
A beautiful black and white Siberian Husky who was born with piercing blue eyes. When he was a year old, he went blind in one eye and it had to be replaced with a prosthetic eye. It was devastating at the time, but he proved to us that he could live a really happy life with one eye.
About a year after that, he went blind in his other eye - he had emergency laser eye surgery to try and fix it. For five days he was blind, I cried every day as he fell down steps, bumped into everything and didn't want to leave his bed. Then miraculously, he started to see - the eye specialist couldn't believe it. She had never had a dog go blind for that long and then have their vision restored.
We never knew how much vision he had in that eye, but we were over the moon that he could see something. We were told that at some stage, there was a fair chance, that he would lose his vision.
7 years on, that day has come...............................
Thousands of dollars have been spent on his eyes, and every cent was worth it.
He is a part of our family, one of our "boys", and even though he can no longer see us, I am going to make sure that he knows every day that we love him.
We will be your eyes Neo, we will guide you through your days and try to help you enjoy every moment that you have left with us.
Please let us know in some way when we must say goodbye