Monday, August 29, 2011
Wow, I'm starting to feel like me........
It's been a while, maybe a month, but today I woke up and finally felt like me. The past month has been really tough, I have felt dizzy, bouts of blurred vision, completely off, tired - scrap that EXHAUSTED!
I've managed to push through each day, you have to when you have two little boys to look after and a household to keep in order.
Last week was a really tiring week. I went to the doctors on Monday - I finally realised that there had to be something wrong with me, I just was not getting better. I had to fast from Tuesday night until I had my blood test on Wednesday morning, I was being tested for everything. Thursday morning I had a meeting for an opportunity, more to be posted on that in weeks to come. Then I had lunch with a couple of girlfriends, in which our little babies kept us on our toes! Whilst there, I got a phone call from creche to say that Coops had fallen off the slide and hurt his arm. They thought he was ok, but he wasn't quite his happy self. So, I quickly devoured some tasty cheese cake - you can't leave without dessert!!! When I got to creche, he was running around outside, but his left arm was dangling down. As soon as he saw me, he ran over crying and saying mummy ouch and holding out his arm. It broke my heart. I felt his wrist and he cried and said ouch again. So, I decided to take him to the hospital to get checked out.
I was lucky that the wait wasn't too long - maybe they felt sorry for me, waiting with a toddler and a baby. The doctor examined him and he too thought nothing was wrong as Coops was pretty spritely and only said ouch and had the odd tear every now and then. He decided to do an x-ray just to rule it all out. Whilst Coops was sitting on my knee having the x-ray done, the only thing he was worried about was "baby Charwie"! Once the doctor got the results, he came back laughing - Coops had in fact cracked a bone in his wrist. The doctor could not believe that he was fairly happy, considering the pain he must have been in. It was time for him to get a half plaster cast on for a couple of weeks. They recruited a nurse to rock Charlie to sleep whilst I held onto Coops while he was getting his plaster on. Our community is beautiful, a stranger then took over looking after Charlie until we went home. Old ladies love babies!
I was almost moved to tears when Will rocked up in his Police uniform and Coops ran over to him crying and saying "ouch Daddy, ouch". I think everyone in emergency almost shed a tear. To see this poor little boy all upset, arm in plaster, run up to his big strong daddy in his police uniform. My heart was breaking as I withheld the tears. Some things in life really move you.
Then for the next few nights, Charlie was teething badly - lack of sleep with the way I was feeling, made me feel like a zombie.
Saturday night was my sister in laws Hens night - it was just over an hour away and I would have had to have driven up and back in the one night as Will was on a day shift the next day. I woke up Saturday morning and had no energy, I felt terrible, my whole mind was foggy and dizzy. All day I was hoping I would be able to make the drive. I would be good for 10 minutes and think "yes, I am going", then I would feel horrible again and knew I wouldn't be able to make it. I had to pull out, I feel like the worst sister in law (and Bridesmaid) around! This is not an event that I wanted to miss, but I knew that it was far too dangerous for me to try and make the drive. I had an early night and luckily none of the kids stirred that night either. Yesterday I went and got some liquid iron, I have now had two doses of that and feel a lot more revitalised. Today I actually went for a walk and felt good the whole time - its been weeks since I have felt like that. I had energy to cook, clean and play with my kids all day - and let me tell you, it is the best day that I have had with them in a while. I also found out from the doctor that there is an issue with my Vitamin D levels, so I have an appointment in the morning to discuss it further with him.
Finally, I am starting to feel like the old positive me, welcome back Buffy!
To my friends, I am so sorry that I haven't been in contact as much, just want you to know that I have been thinking of you, just haven't been able to do much at all.
And to my sister in law B - I hope that you still love me, even though I could not be a part of your special night (and get to see that sexy visitor that made an appearance!!) I can't wait till your magical day in just under a month, and to be a part of your new beginning as a wife xx
Ahh, here's to a beautiful week, sunshine and good health!